I was thinking about commitment today. Totally random? maybe. But, I have lots of random thoughts latelyÂ so it made perfect sense to me. I was thinking about how no one wants to commit to anything anymore. It could as simple as volunteering at your kids school or helping out at church or helping out a friend...all the way to staying in friendships/marriage for years, being loyal to a job and volunteering long-term. I remember when I started doing photography...people would ask if I was going to do it for a long time and I didn't know. Didn't want to commit. When did committing to something become a negative thing? It's committing to the trade and my clients that makes me a good, even great, photographer right? So, wouldn't that apply to every area of my life? Marriage? Friendships? Family? God?
Recently I've had incredible things happen in my heart and I've made strong commitments to how I am going to live my life from this point on. It's shocking to most...but, I feel a resolve that can't be explained. Something has changed in me and I want to commit. I don't feel burdened. I feel purpose. I don't feel like it's "one more thing". I feel like it's the only thing and everything else comes out it.
I'll tell you it's not easy but, it's wonderful. It's hard work but, I feel alive in the struggle. Does that make sense? I know this life is more than just breathing in and out and waiting for years to pass...it's so much more. I'm singing and journalling again. I smile more. I have peace that I can't explain. I feel like myself.
All I know is...I'm different and I never want to go back. Want to talk more? Email me.