Life moves so fast. Sometimes I feel myself slowing down on the inside and listening to my thoughts. Today i didn't like what I heard. I don't know why I'm comparing and being critical - I know I could reason it out and say it's normal but, I don't want to be normal. I want to be kind and loving AND that means grace for those around me. I want that from others and I want to be that person who gives freely. I will give more. I know I can ask forgiveness and start over so, I do. This afternoon is a new day. I want to focus on what is good and noble and wise and kind...and pray that it comes out of me too! I will let go of what is past.
Life is going fast and I don't want to spend my time judging, being critical, angry, and selfish. But, i don't think I knew that being a servant would be so hard. I can complain that I'm not naturally a servant but, I know I can learn so that's not really an excuse. I have so many amazing women around me who serve and delight in it. I will rub shoulders with them and hope some of it rubs onto me. I will be teachable.
I want so much from this life. A big part of that is because of the people around me. I want to be a blessing and train my kids to that giving is truly better then receiving. The only way I know to do that is to model it...I will serve more.
Do you ever feel like you already give so much? Or that there's nothing left to give? And definitely nothing left to keep for yourself? Today I was thinking that...but, I realized investing in those around me is all I have in this life. I will love.
whew. I feel better. Funny that i actually miss blogging my thoughts. They get so piled up in my head when I'm editing day and night. It was a good thing to just sit and write.